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Monday, February 2, 2009, 6:11 AM
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new year had passed =) dam tiring these days.. and i dun feel quite well too keep on sick le haha well nht much to post. this may sound bad but dad words seem to be veri annoying.. i felt pressure toking to him just feel like avoiding him.. hes expectation for mi i afraid i cant manage it le haha i cant be wat he wants me to be.. he always trusted mi and support mi in everything i did.. that what he said but i can feel that he not even trusting me, hes doubting mi whether all those aim i made were nth but lies =) seldom go archery le just felt that everyone change so sudden haha mayb keep myself busy was the onli way i can get through it. dad keep asking mi to smile.. but wat the point? when i am not even happy. asking me to called ah gong when i am not even close to him? maybe many ppl will thinki '' eeyer how come ar this guy like that one, ownself de ah gong oso like bo chap bo chap one.'' but seriously he come home once a year and we diden tok much oso.. even if i could fake like i am close to him but i cant lied to myself.. dad always said dun care bout how other thinks about u.. and yet hes the onli person who keep minding of the things i do. lol fake a smile sure is hard.. just felt that wat they said doesnt make sense to me. expecting mi to do wat he cant do? hmph nonsense..WineZ:i no longer understand what kinda smile consider real.. i decide my life not you..