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Sunday, July 27, 2008, 8:02 AM
27/8/08
today went for training.. this week is dam tough but still get through le so..i saw a little girl hugging her mother leg and said that she wan her mother to hug her..
haha.. how adorable.. i wonder how long le.. since my mum hug me.. really wish to stay as a kid so that at least dun have so much things troubling me.. nowadays.. i start to see illusions.. i dunno why i will become like this.. i seem to avoiding everyone.. saw penguien i just had this feeling that i am jealous.. why am i always so bad... dad said that everyone are born for something.. good at something.. but what am i good at? hmph.. these few days i keep on thinking i think alot.. dam lot.. i think that why am i not good enough? after all i did for her whole heartly.. she get irritated.. i wan to prove that for her i can change... but instead she said i am not her cup of tea.. i can accept..i really can accept u know.. i know i am not good looking.. that why i diden expect much either.. but why cant she just treat mi as a normal friend. just like a normal friend.. why does penguien did so little and he get everything.. why.. my score drop le.. i no longer have the feeling to train neither to learn guitar le.. i got a new habit.. i did alot of running nowsaday.. in the gym at least the run diden make mi think so much.. i always swore that i will nv cry and i did.. a few days ago.. i really cant understand so i tok to her about it.. and told her how i felt.. in the end i am being kick down real dam hard.. i cant it.. really cant le.. i am sad.. everyone said cheer up but what u wan mi to do? in sch i still have to fake smile inorder to avoid ppl questioning me.. this kinda life is a torture.. today saw meiling and darren yeo at canteen.. and oso can felt that they really love each other so much.. and yet i can onli dream of her at night.. i del my blog because i dunwan her to get irritated le.. so i leave.. but why must ppl keep calling mi emo.. i hate that name.. lol.. i wonder if someday i really die.. would anyone ever notice me? i wish that she will be happy.. no matter how much she hurt mi i can bear with it.. because i know that the commiment i make..
hao